| I was the one worth leaving |
[May. 15th, 2005|06:35 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Nick Drake | ] |
My lovelies, you will be seeing a lot less of me from now on. I'm growing up, I suppose. Work will occupy most of my free time.
There was a child who was born to be the one who comforts me
Who was born strong and brave and holy, loves me rough and tenderly
Can it be understood the reasons why you belong to me?
Having someone know you through and through is a very scary thing. Here are my insecurities on a plate for you, love me anyway. Why does that work?
I have a picture of my perfect life in my head, I might have dreamt it. I have an apartment in Portland, I live with someone whether it's a roommate or a boyfriend, makes no difference. I'm drinking hot liquid, hot cocoa or tea, I look out a window,I put the cup on a coffee table, I bundle up on the couch and I'm content, really content. Every time I hear Ben Gibbard I think of this. I miss Portland. I love Portland. I'm not allowed to go on a road trip this summer. :(
( Caution: Aw worthy. ) |
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[Apr. 24th, 2005|03:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Onelinedrawing | ] |
"So, I like you, a lot, and I want to keep you. What do you think?"
( May disgust. ) |
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[Apr. 23rd, 2005|03:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Thom Yorke and Bjork (they should make babies) | ] |
Instead of receiving presents for my birthday (Monday) I decided that I'd really rather give presents.
I get pre-birthday depression, last year my mom cried because she couldn't make me happy, this year I decided to fake smile all day.
I think I have bronchitis.
( DONE (finally). ) |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2005|08:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Constipated? Oh, no, bitchy. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Not Eisley | ] |
Oh man.
A Batman that looks...good?
The sky is falling.
Look, Randy! A picture!
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| I felt I should elaborate. |
[Feb. 1st, 2005|06:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Album Leaf | ] |
My insides hurt.
Un. If anyone should be there for me, it should be you. You disappoint me. I'm not using you, how dare you think of me as such a monster. You broke my heart. Your lack of caring kills me.
Deux. The fact that my mere presence leads to someone else's unhappiness makes me sick. I would disappear if it would make you happy.
Trois. YOU. What is wrong with you? Why now? Stop it, please. I'm weak when it comes to you. What you're doing is cruel.
Quatre. Please stop being thoughtless.
Cinq. If you stop caring I'll throw myself out a window.
Six. Go away, please. I don't want to have your babies.
Sept. ...I thought you liked me.
Most people sucked today. I was uncomfortable no matter who I was with, with an exception, who I'm not going to name because it will give her a big head.
I'm getting a tape recorder because I love my thoughts, but they leave me. |
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[Jan. 15th, 2005|11:34 pm] |
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Christ, livejournal, you made me cheat on you. |
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| Goal: Stop being a sucky friend to everyone I care about. |
[Jan. 11th, 2005|11:18 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pleased | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Death Cab For Cutie | ] |
Plan of action:
-Finish knitting Shanda's scarf (I'm SO close).
-Figure out how to work my sewing machine and make Vicky's One Tree Hill scarf.
-Make Brittany a mix that won't get stolen because of it's obscene title.
-Talk to Jami every once in a while (and while we're at it, stop smacking people's asses because they resemble Jami from behind, yeah, that was embarrassing).
-Make Christina a CD that includes Mr. Brightside.
-Paint something for Jaime and Kelsey.
-Stop being a bipolar bitch.
-Make a Movie Night or something as an excuse to hang out with my all-time favorite people.
If there's anything you want from me, now is the time to ask. |
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[Jan. 8th, 2005|01:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | PMS | ] |
I think my thoughts right now are better off in my head.
Plus, I misplaced my camera.
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